Mar 1, 2004
Posted at 06:20 pm by dilemma
Feb 27, 2004
all my depressed entries are so pathetic. i look back on them and im just like what the hell??? so ill keep those private from now on.
Music: "Come Clean" -Hillary Duff (you know you love it)
anyways, what's up on this gross snow day? nothing hurr. just went to kaitlin's last night and i watched jawbreaker today. it was pretty good.it seems to be getting darker, but im not sure. i really hat snow for all of you that didnt know.
ME AND NATALIE ARE GOING TO NYC FOR SPRING BREAK!!! I <3 MY BEST FRIEND!!!!
but my dad is shopping online for ticket prices. he says we can really go anywhere in USA but i want NYC and i think Nat feels the same. cool. im just happy to get outta here.
i am so thankful for my girlfriends (Nat Abdawg Jessica Beckie Tina Kaitlin Heather) They really do make everything okay. i love htme all so much. 
pretty pretty -snow looks liike stars dont they?
Posted at 04:21 pm by dilemma
Feb 26, 2004
You figured this was cool, but you figured wrong
When Kelly cries, makeup runs from her eyes, and spills the truth, about how she feels inside.
Oh, i dont know what is wrong with me. i guess everyone feels this way, but i feel so ugly. im not fishing for compliments, dont you DARE accuse me of that. you dont know how i feel. i have gorgeous friends (nat abby kaitlin) and then theres me -the uglyducking.they always get all the attention/compliments/guys. seriously*i honestly feel this way. i dont knowwww. never mind. does everyone feel like this?
Posted at 10:32 am by dilemma
Feb 25, 2004
Broken <3's are broken names
i really wish more people would comment. do it. please. it truly makes my day.
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. In that time period, have you ever contemplated throttling me?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. Have we ever kissed?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your blurty and see what I say about you?
Posted at 07:53 pm by dilemma
Fool's Gold
the smell of sunshine
i remember sometimes
thought i had it all before they called my bluff
found out that my skin just wasn't thick enough
wanted to go back to how it was before
thought i lost everything
then i lost a whole lot more
a fool's devotion
swallowed up in empty space
the tears of regret
frozen to the side of my face
the smell of sunshine
i remember sometimes
i've done all i can do
could i please come with you?
sweet smell of sunshine
i remember sometimes
Posted at 06:34 pm by dilemma
Feb 23, 2004
Should have seen just what was there, and not just some holy light
mood: jealous/sad
jams: "picture of you" -my morning jacket
You couldn't be that man I adore. You don't seem to know -seem to care- what your heart is for.
whuttup pimp.
kinda feeling depressed. i tihk its just cuz i feel ugly today and that always puts me in a sad mood. ugh maybe ill talk about my depression later. i changed my mind.
Posted at 04:48 pm by dilemma
Feb 22, 2004
Remember when I said "I love you"?
i dont even wanna tlak about last night.
i do wanna talk about how i never in a million years thought jesse hill would cry on my lap. aw, i know he doesnt remember, but it was c-ay-Ute.
later.
ps. jessica b. rules. and she desevres the BEST
Posted at 11:21 am by dilemma
Feb 21, 2004
..when you laid your hands upon me and told me who you are
got bored and took this long quiz. about 70 questions. so i pressed submit and my results were no ones opnion really matters. like my answers didnt matter. i was pissed. and i couldnt sleep last night so i drank some powerade and vodka (eddie+beckie=bad influence!!!) but of course it did nothing. so i forced myself to sleep and woke up at 7. but thats ok cuz im going to the mall today at 10. and im excited about tonight cuz i love eddie so much.
WORD TO YOUR MUM.
Posted at 07:38 am by dilemma
Feb 20, 2004
i left school early cuz i just couldnt deal with it. so i went to abercrombie and got 3 pairs of pants, one of which is too small cuz im a fatass now. seriously, i am. so i gott get a size 2 tomorrow. soooooo cool.
and i got a cool plaid jacket.
thats the extent of my day.
Posted at 07:36 pm by dilemma
Feb 17, 2004
one always stuck with the work
2 good jobs
one bad seed
2 apples
one collision to end it all
2 dummies
one dead
2 missing
one enough for the world
2 is a crowd
one fishing for the words
2 listening
one god
2 questions
one hello
2 goodbyes
one "i miss you"
2 "do you minds"
one "just kidding"
2 hurt
one kite in the sea of blue
2 clouds messing it up
one love
2 hearts
one mother to tell you its ok
2 parents
one not so good mark
2 okays
one open pair of arms
2 arms
one pair of converse won on ebay
2 lost
one quiet girl
2 taunting ones
one restless child
2 Ritilin
one slitley insane woman
2 doctors
one true friend
2 primary colors
one underdog
2 overhead lights
one very lucky boy
2 understatements
one word
2 meanings
one xplanation
2 opinions
one "you're right.."
2 "im sorrys"
one zoo of people
2 many 2 soon
Posted at 07:19 pm by dilemma
